Common Sense

You thought I wasn’t going to recognize the date, didn’t you?

I haven’t gone to see the two movies I really want to see — Grindhouse and Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film for Theaters — because I haven’t had the time. I was planning on a long movie-viewing Saturday, but I’m out of Vicodin so that’s just not feasible. I can barely sit in my chair at work tonight, I don’t know how I would make it through 4 plus hours at a theater.

Withdrawal from Tramadol was worse, but this is still pretty bad. I’ve got nausea, a migraine and my leg hurts about 3 times as much as it normally would. My eyes and ears are very sensitive right now and I don’t see how I’m supposed to make it until my doctor’s appointment Tuesday afternoon. Stupid doctor and stupid DEA and stupid bitch at the pharmacy who hasn’t actually bothered me for a few months but I still hate her.

I’m a cripple with a chronic pain condition. I should be able to take as many of whatever drugs as I want. This constant undermedication is starting to annoy me and that doesn’t sit well with nausea and a migraine. If I have to upchuck on my doctor’s shoes tomorrow morning to get a script, I will damnit!

My personal life is kind of a wreck right now, too. I started dating someone last week, someone who was a very good friend: Nobody girl. All this was after a long saga and her previous boyfriend. We had a fight Tuesday night and she stormed off after telling me that she was fine.

The one thing I can never tolerate is lying. And that’s the one thing she did and I can never forgive her for that. So when she started texting me and calling me, I’ve just ignored her. That’s really hard to do since we work together, but I’ve stuck to my guns on this one.

I’ve told her since we became friends that I’m mean, that I’m selfish and that I’m sadistic. I don’t know, I guess she thought that since she’s a liar that I must be a liar, too. Au contrair, I’m actually as brutally honest as possible; especially when it comes to my favorite subject: me.

I had the thought, right after the bar and the fight, on how to solve this whole dilemma. It’s the fact that I have so many friends and that I’m personally invested in their lives that causes so many problems. So, I’ve pretty much started ignoring my friends. At least the ones that are part of that whole life I had around work. I don’t have a problem with being friendly with co-workers, but no more of this socializing thing.

The way I see it, I only really need one friend and that’s Space Monkey. I see him one or two weekends a month and two weeks a year (like the Army Reserve) and that’s all we need. Sailor Moon will still be my friend, but he’s moving to California soon so I’ll likely only see him on major holidays. And the people I know online aren’t really friends, they are colleagues and Internet acquaintances, so they don’t count. Every one else, I’m just going to ignore.

That was also the shortest relationship for me. It lasted less than a week which is more than a week shorter than the competition. I feel pretty comfortable with this decision, it’s just a matter of being as mean as possible to get them to leave me alone.

PS: Devin at CHUD has been doing reviews of all the Friday the 13th movies for the past 10 days. I feel for him, I really do. You all know that is exactly the kind movies I go out of my way to watch.