Common Sense

I woke up Monday afternoon to the sound of my mom screaming. She found my stepfather, Bill Lewallen, had died in his sleep during the day. I called 911 and tried to do CPR but his body was cold and stiff.

I’ve spent the week trying to help my mom, who has been breaking down into tears and doing what I can around the house. We had the wake last night and the funeral this morning. I’m back at work even though I didn’t want to leave my mom home alone. She has The Jesus to keep her company I guess.

I can’t really tell you how I feel about all of this. Not only was this a shock but my doctor adjusted my dosages. I’m on 60 mgs of Cymbalta a day and I’ve also been prescribed nortryptyline to help me sleep. I didn’t take my second pill before work and I just feel very confused and tired. I don’t think I’ve reacted very much at all this week to anything. I’ve just been blissfully, emotionally numb.

My leg is still a different story. However I’m feeling in my head, the leg still hurts like hell. I really don’t want to get nerve block injections, but it looks as though that is my only real recourse.

I woke up Monday afternoon to the sound of my mom screaming. She found my stepfather, Bill Lewallen, had died in his sleep during the day. I called 911 and tried to do CPR but his body was cold and stiff.

I’ve spent the week trying to help my mom, who has been breaking down into tears and doing what I can around the house. We had the wake last night and the funeral this morning. I’m back at work even though I didn’t want to leave my mom home alone. She has The Jesus to keep her company I guess.

I can’t really tell you how I feel about all of this. Not only was this a shock but my doctor adjusted my dosages. I’m on 60 mgs of Cymbalta a day and I’ve also been prescribed nortryptyline to help me sleep. I didn’t take my second pill before work and I just feel very confused and tired. I don’t think I’ve reacted very much at all this week to anything. I’ve just been blissfully, emotionally numb.

My leg is still a different story. However I’m feeling in my head, the leg still hurts like hell. I really don’t want to get nerve block injections, but it looks as though that is my only real recourse.