Common Sense

Pain + Frustration = Irritability

I think that explains why I’ve been more angry lately. Today, the normal obstacles I deal with in maneuvering through our house seemed more like an endurance trial and I felt like breaking something I was so mad. It was over little things, too. Mom puts her stuff on my side of the vanity or the dog peed next to the gate in the hallway and I had to step in it because walking around it was near impossible.

Stuff that used to only annoy me now get to me. Everything seems to lead directly back to the pain in my leg, too. That’s starting to put me on something of an emotional rollercoaster (relax, I’m being somewhat melodramatic. I’m definitely not depressed). Either people see me limping and want to know why, which I don’t really want to talk about, or the haven’t noticed me the past three months hobbling along, so they want me to walk around with them everywhere, which just hurts physically.

My beautiful solution to pain management has been to sleep as much as possible. The number of Aleve I’m taking, you would think I would be seeing a reduction in the amount of pain. You would be wrong. Usually, the background pain that I feel in my knee goes away, but the sharp pain in my knee and in my thigh stick around. I don’t feel pain when I sleep, though, so I’m just going to start fixing stiff drinks when I get home from work. I’ll sleep for 7 or 8 hours, pain free and happy.

You know, you don’t realize how ubiquitous something is until it suddenly isn’t so ubiquitous. Walking, for instance, is something you take for granted until it hurts to do it very much. Or all that twisting and turning and bending down we do in everyday life. What if everytime you did it, you were reminded by sharp pain that your knee isn’t functioning correctly?

I’m going to start using my Myspace Blog as a pain diary. I should have been keeping one all along, but with physical therapy coming up, I need one to keep track of any progress. And I’ve done enough bitching about it here.

Oh, and Gina Parker is a moron. Her and her teabaggers.